Wow, so much has happened in the last 2 months.  I get the opportunity of a lifetime,
combined with the loss of a lifetime. It's okay.  I had a good friend of mine tell me
something that surprised me.  I had been discussing my life's drama with her and she
said, that buddha found peace only when he stopped looking.  I know that is what I
have to do now.  It's like crowd surfing.  You just close your eyes, and let go, with
the collective understanding that you will be caught.  Sometimes it's awesome, and
you stay up and go places.... and sometimes you get dropped on your head.
 Either way, you must embrace it and hope for the best outcome.  I feel kinda
sorry for Kat.  She has to make some important decisions about what to do
with the immediate and more far reaching future of her life...
I know that I can find happiness and empowerment, either through my
independence, or through Kat's love.  Nothing else to really do, but  be