Guitarist and electronic programmer, pete has worked with a number of different groups such as Delimiter, Weapons of Mass Destruction, and Negative Charge. Lead programmer & sysadmin of cytoplastik.com, as well as a few others..   discography: Crystal Cloud (2001) Cytoplastik Pods Compilation (2002)
| cycles - Saturday, January 6, 2007 12:06 am
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I have been very depressed lately. It's not even for any particular reason as far as I can tell. Maybe it is. I have been feeling like I am really only pretending to live, and not really being alive. I feel disconnected from everything. I feel like there is still some empty craving that I must fulfill. I feel like maybe that's always been the case, but it rears it's ugly head in my subconscious in cycles. It's nice how Firefox 2.0 has built-in spell check in fields. I have this new video card and I feel like I have barely used it. What happened to the motivation I had so long ago. Where has all of my energy gone? Has the youth in me died so soon? When did this happen? Why was there no funeral? My "music" has suffered most of all. I have created nothing new in so many years I have lost track. The last thing I completed was "amygdala" and I feel that came out half-assed at best. I have all of these pieces of things that I just let sit unfinished, like so many Tupac albums. Maybe that means they will be released for years after I die. That probably won't be for a long ass time though.
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This last week has been so incredilby crazy. Phil, Sam, and Kevin left for California today, and I am saddened and relieved. I can't wait to go home tonight and just hang out at my house, without tons of people around. Happy 2007 everybody. A moment of silence for those who have died this year:
Danny Debois
Masako Katahira
Patrick Horan
Justin Lambert
Edward Charles "Teddy" Osmund
Richard Sehorn
Rest in Peace
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